Happy New Year

I had a long talk with one of my friends last night. We discussed self sabotage. Self Sabotage is when you do the wrong thing intentionally to hurt yourself. Wow !!! How many of us are guilty of that. It could be something as simple as knowing you don't need that sugary soft drink but you get it anyway. I have done that so many times I can't even count.

I think that I need to be very consious of the thoughts that come into my head. By harboring these thoughts I am harboring failure. I stopped writing in my blogs for the simple fact that no one is gonna read it so why bother. Not so, I write in my blogs for my outlet. I put it all out there just in case someone stumbles onto my blog get the help and reassurance they need to keep going.

So with that being said. I will do my best to write weekly. I will be busy with school. This semester I will be taking three classes instead of two. Never the less I will do my best to not to fall into the trap of Self Sabotage.

That is my New Years Resolution

Peace

The End of the Year

It is now the end of 2010. I have had my highs and lows. I had bariatric surgery. No I am not super skinny. In fact I am 30 pounds from my original weight. I can't say that I am disgusted, however I am angry with myself.

There are so many things that need to change next year. I need to do things totally different from what I have been doing them. How do I do this? How do I turn things around? I will have to figure this out. I can't live in survival mode any longer. Survival mode is getting old.

Hunger Ramblings....

I did try the GI meal plan. You know it works. However I have not been eating that much at all. I can only drink protein shakes at night. I hope that is a good thing. Today I just had a protein shake. I will probably have another one before I go to bed.

Fast food has really been the hardest to digest. I can't tolerate it at all. Soda is a weakness for me. However I can't drink that either. I am tired of fighting my body so I will just submit. I don't like feeling hungry so I try to keep stuff like fruit around. I had a green apple last week and it wasn't bad. It did keep the hunger at bay.

Anywho, I had the endoscopy done last Wednesday. Everything turned out fine. This week it's the colonoscopy on Wednesday. So I will be doing the clear liquids on Tuesday and the yucky drink MoviPrep. That's going to be so fun!!!!!

I might have found something....

I saw a commercial for eDiets.com. So I went to the website, answered some questions. The result, they recommended a Glycemic diet. I will be doing some reading on this and trying it as well. I want to see if it makes a difference and can I fit it into my lifestyle of working ten hours days, coming home late. Meanwhile, I will furnish the link so you can read about on your own

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Glycemic_index
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This week not so good....

This not so good. Lots of eating out. However rebounding is the key. I have to do this smarter. How to make better choices. I will be going to the doctor tomorrow. I will be keeping you all abreast of that

So far so good.....

Okay it has been it's four days. So far so good. I have been sticking to 600-1000 calorie plan. It getting easier to manage. I started using the food diary that was given to me by Dr. Terracina. I keep it in my purse. I was weighed today I am down from 282 to 270. I weighed myself at the gym and I thought it was a fluke. However I went to the doctor's office and there it was.

Also I have found there are some things you can actually eat and keep under the 1000 calorie marker. The one that surprised me was Thai food. I ate the Tum Yum Goong soup (44 cal), the healthy steam rolls (194 cal) and a papaya salad (112 cal) and I was waaay under the marker. I only eat half could so the I saved the rest for dinner.

I did make a some boo boos however. One was hibachi grill lunch, OMG !!!! I didn't realize how high in calories that was. The other was the Starbuck's Frappucino light, NOT it was 310 calories. I did drink the diet coke. Which is a big no no in the WLS world.

Which brings me to my next point. I wanted to find drinks and sweetness that did not have aspartame. I did some web searches and found one. Crystal light now has new line of products called "fitness." The fitness mix DOES NOT have aspartame. So I quickly bought 3 boxes of it. It was different, it does have a slight after taste but not as bad as aspartame.

I also wanted to stop using sugar in my coffee and tea and also not be tempted to get ANY more diet soda. I also picked up these new bottled drinks as well. So what I did was purchased the stevia and truvia sweetener packets. I was thoroughly impressed with both of them. On Sunday I will be showing those product in my weekly video, so stay tuned!!!!

As you can see I have changed the look of the blog. I like it, but I did lose my "followers" function with the new template. So for those that I beat over the head to follow the blog I apologize whole heartedly. So to remedy that I would appreciate comments when you visit. That way I know SOMEONE OUT THERE IS READING THIS!!! I didn't want to crowd the blog to much stuff. Although, I did add some widgets and gadgets to the blog such as the Amazon widget and the blogroll to name a few of the additions.

WELL THAT IS IT FOR NOW !!!!!!!!

Calories

I started Saturday on reducing the calories in my diet. I am really trying to keep it simple. I know if I complicate matters I will get discouraged. I am attempting to keep my calories limited to 600-1000. Saturday I went over I was so mad. On Saturday I took in 1089 calories and Sunday I took in 960 calories. Now, I have been keeping a food log I put it in my purse. That does help but I really want to stress keeping it simple.

It is simply amazing to watch what you put in your mouth without a second thought. I had to plan out every move I made. I have to learn to step back and don't be rushed into anything. Like yesterday, we went to Starbucks. Now Starbucks has a of making a frappucino where you can consume less calories. What did I do, make the worst possible choice and it cost me 320 calories. So that meant I would have to eat less to for that 1000 calorie goal for today. Haven't started exercising yet. One thing I can say though is it felt great no to vomit for once.

I know that was gross, but the Lap band and Gastic Bypass folks know what I am talking about.

Signing off good nite.

A special thank you to those who have stopped by and read the blog. Also big hugz to those that are now following my blog and leaving comments.