Happy New Year

I had a long talk with one of my friends last night. We discussed self sabotage. Self Sabotage is when you do the wrong thing intentionally to hurt yourself. Wow !!! How many of us are guilty of that. It could be something as simple as knowing you don't need that sugary soft drink but you get it anyway. I have done that so many times I can't even count.

I think that I need to be very consious of the thoughts that come into my head. By harboring these thoughts I am harboring failure. I stopped writing in my blogs for the simple fact that no one is gonna read it so why bother. Not so, I write in my blogs for my outlet. I put it all out there just in case someone stumbles onto my blog get the help and reassurance they need to keep going.

So with that being said. I will do my best to write weekly. I will be busy with school. This semester I will be taking three classes instead of two. Never the less I will do my best to not to fall into the trap of Self Sabotage.

That is my New Years Resolution

Peace

The End of the Year

It is now the end of 2010. I have had my highs and lows. I had bariatric surgery. No I am not super skinny. In fact I am 30 pounds from my original weight. I can't say that I am disgusted, however I am angry with myself.

There are so many things that need to change next year. I need to do things totally different from what I have been doing them. How do I do this? How do I turn things around? I will have to figure this out. I can't live in survival mode any longer. Survival mode is getting old.